Yesterday was a night where not a wink of sleep was spared. The time used was for reflection (yes, I have this habit of reflecting. I think school has set an influence for me).
Have you ever felt satisfied with something, yet wonder if it is satisfying enough those who are around you?
That's how I have been feeling ever since I got my results. Like I said, I never really set expectations for myself, and so, I was satisfied with whatever I got. But upon realizing that I could have done better if I actually was serious enough to complete my papers during the Examinations, I feel ever so much in a sulking mood. Yes, it's no use to "cry over spilt milk" as the term goes, but it's really tough when you have relatives who do nothing but compare their child's results with yours.
I saw the disappointed faces some of my loved ones had when I showed them my result slip. I guess it was the same feeling as PSLE. On the day of PSLE, I did nothing but play basketball. I was even chased out of school because I wasn't studying.
And as much as I wanted to kick that habit away, I did the same; not being focused for my O'levels. And to top it off, the problems at home not only made me ill, but depressed and thus, unable to focus on my school work.
A bunch of excuses, many would say.
But on a brighter note, I am looking forward to the courses in mind. I do hope that I fulfill one of my resolution, that is to get into Child Psychology.
Loves.
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Tuesday, January 13, 2009
Monday, January 12, 2009
Judgement Day
Well, many would call it Judgment Day. But I think today was a day where the anticipation was finally over, and thus I felt more relieved than nervous while waiting, and when I got my results.
I wouldn't say that I was disappointed at all, because, truth to be told, I never really set expectations for myself. But it was a bummer that Biology decided to betray me. But I guess Mr Lim's story of the Farmer and Rabbits did help me.
But I did pass freakin' Chinese! Not only am I happy, but proud of it. Well, it may be a low score for you, but hell no for me! It's my first ever passing mark for Chinese since Secondary Two! It had been F9 for a long time, that I felt elated upon seeing a C5 on my paper!
And English has never ever betrayed me. And I am happy that I managed to stay in Mrs. Raj's class. Not only have I learned alot from her, both in general knowledge and skills wise, but she has also inspired me (other than my mum) to be an educator.
Anyway, I do hope everyone's doing fine. To all the lads and babes out there, you guys better set some time to think of what school to apply.
All the best everyone!
Loves.
Saturday, December 20, 2008
Irritating
One thing good about living in my flat is that it is really convenient. There's buses, the MRT station is just opposite my flat, there's a taxi stand at the MRT station, and there's three vending machines under my flat.
But after living here for 7 years, I realized that there are much more cons than pros in living in this flat. Well, to make it more direct, in my home. Well, we do have very inconsiderate neighbours who live a floor above us. They drill things, drag chairs and play with marbles at the oddest period of time in the day; at night. And when we go up to their flat to talk to them nicely, they never open the door.
Another issue about this neighbour is that they always write wrong addresses to companies, putting it as our unit, instead of theirs. And we always get their bills, and advertisements from these various companies. We were kind enough to put the letters back into their letterbox. But time and again, the letters come back to us, so much that we have given up doing the good deed or returning it to them. We either return to sender, or we simply throw it away.
The next issue is that despite the convenience, it's really irritating sometimes when you live so near the road. There's the irritating Motorbikes on the road with the deafening sounds. Then there's the frequent honk from the MRT. And there's also the every-minute message about standing behind the yellow line, and warning of not eating and drinking and so on. And not forgetting the road constructions that can last up to 11 or 12 in the middle of the night. The drilling, and screeching of metal makes it teeth-grinding.
The last issue, is about performance. Staying so near the Admiralty MRT station is bad because there are spaces big enough for Getai performances. Some songs are nice, with the lights and stuff, but having it to last till 11pm at night, can make one think twice about living in my flat.
And to make matters worst, there's an RC under my flat. And they do have the monthly or a few months get-together, where they will barbeque, and perform, singing Hokkien songs, singing their hearts out.
Don't get me wrong, RC members should have the opportunity to unwind, because it's thanks to their hard work that our papers get recycled every Sunday.
But having to hear vocally challenged people singing their lungs out from 4pm to 10pm is simply, unbearable. You feel like throwing shit down at them, but when you walk out to take aim, the heavenly smell of barbecue calms your nerves down.
Damn.
*Updated.
I'm happy, because I finally managed to dye my hair back to dark brown!
But I've been having the stomach flu for a couple of days now, I hope it doesn't affect my Christmas mood!
But on a happier note, I'm no more a lion!
Loves
But after living here for 7 years, I realized that there are much more cons than pros in living in this flat. Well, to make it more direct, in my home. Well, we do have very inconsiderate neighbours who live a floor above us. They drill things, drag chairs and play with marbles at the oddest period of time in the day; at night. And when we go up to their flat to talk to them nicely, they never open the door.
Another issue about this neighbour is that they always write wrong addresses to companies, putting it as our unit, instead of theirs. And we always get their bills, and advertisements from these various companies. We were kind enough to put the letters back into their letterbox. But time and again, the letters come back to us, so much that we have given up doing the good deed or returning it to them. We either return to sender, or we simply throw it away.
The next issue is that despite the convenience, it's really irritating sometimes when you live so near the road. There's the irritating Motorbikes on the road with the deafening sounds. Then there's the frequent honk from the MRT. And there's also the every-minute message about standing behind the yellow line, and warning of not eating and drinking and so on. And not forgetting the road constructions that can last up to 11 or 12 in the middle of the night. The drilling, and screeching of metal makes it teeth-grinding.
The last issue, is about performance. Staying so near the Admiralty MRT station is bad because there are spaces big enough for Getai performances. Some songs are nice, with the lights and stuff, but having it to last till 11pm at night, can make one think twice about living in my flat.
And to make matters worst, there's an RC under my flat. And they do have the monthly or a few months get-together, where they will barbeque, and perform, singing Hokkien songs, singing their hearts out.
Don't get me wrong, RC members should have the opportunity to unwind, because it's thanks to their hard work that our papers get recycled every Sunday.
But having to hear vocally challenged people singing their lungs out from 4pm to 10pm is simply, unbearable. You feel like throwing shit down at them, but when you walk out to take aim, the heavenly smell of barbecue calms your nerves down.
Damn.
*Updated.
I'm happy, because I finally managed to dye my hair back to dark brown!
But I've been having the stomach flu for a couple of days now, I hope it doesn't affect my Christmas mood!
But on a happier note, I'm no more a lion!
Loves
Wednesday, December 03, 2008
Thoughts
Have you ever spent a few days so engrossed in your work, that you failed to realize what day or date it was?
The past two weeks had me thinking through about a lot of things. And as I reminisced the past, I became more and more worried about the future; worried about how quickly time can pass without any realization at all.
Have you ever had the feeling where you wanted to shut yourself out from the world, or just to have a break, but the moment you take a seat, you have to heave yourself up to scatter to the next destination because there was no time?
The past few days working in the zoo was one of the best and worst times of my life. But as weird as it may sound, I quit the job. My family members were really shocked and till today, have been asking me to think it over. My colleagues in the zoo have asked me to not give up too, and found it really weird for me to quit on the evaluation day because they knew I had all my scripts down.
But the reason why I quit was not because I was nervous, or stressed about the scripts. In fact, it was thanks to the scripts that I managed to learn and know so much about the animals. Well, the actual reason to why I quit was because I lost passion for hosting.
Being in the zoo gave me so much time to get to know all the staffs and animals better. And I must admit that I do envy the animals a lot, for they have the best people to take care of them; their devoted keepers. The reason why I have so much respect for the keepers is not only because they take care, clean their dens and feed the animals, but because they actually spend more time in the zoo,than with their families. In fact, all the keepers would stay overnight if their animals are sick or going to give birth. Can you imagine the number of hours they put in for these animals?
Being in the zoo also gave me time to see how the zoo was run, and how the token feeders (my job) did their job. That was where it struck me, and hard. See, the more I familiarized with the zoo, the more I wanted to do something for the animals and it's not merely talking about them, I wanted more action. Don't get me wrong, token feeders are in fact one of the most important people in the zoo, because they are actually the voice for the animals. But I guess after two weeks at the zoo, I couldn't stand the same routine done over and over again. I must say, that all the show presenters are excellent in what they do, and memorizing script isn't that easy you know. But for me, I don't think I can stay still long enough, to do the many scripts day after day. I'm not saying it's boring, it's more like, not my cup of tea. Over the past two weeks, I realized that hosting afterall wasn't my taste and as always, I still do prefer teaching.
But the animals and their keepers have indeed left a very deep mark in my heart, so I'll most probably be a volunteer there, or at the SPCA, where I would indeed get a chance to help the animals in need.
Many said that my decision was a hasty one, and some said that I was dumb to quit from a high paying job. Well, I wouldn't want to lie and say that money doesn't matter, because it does. But like what Mr Raymond Huang always say, nothing's worth doing if you ain't got the heart for it. And just like this job, I love the animals more and more each day, but as the days go by, I lose the heart for hosting.
Well, that means I'm pretty much jobless right now. It's a confusing kind of feeling you know. i want to work because it's better than being at home doing nothing. Besides earning cash during the holidays is better than bumming around, and not helping your parents with the household "crisis". But at the same time, I want to treasure my youth! And hang out with friends and catch up on the good old times.
Oh well, what's done is done. I'm still going for interviews and stuff, but if I really don't feel like it, I'd probably just help my mum out in her holiday kids programme. So friends, if you want to meet up, I'm just a call away!
Oh yah, now that I'm jobless, this gives me more time to blog! hahah.
Loves.
The past two weeks had me thinking through about a lot of things. And as I reminisced the past, I became more and more worried about the future; worried about how quickly time can pass without any realization at all.
Have you ever had the feeling where you wanted to shut yourself out from the world, or just to have a break, but the moment you take a seat, you have to heave yourself up to scatter to the next destination because there was no time?
The past few days working in the zoo was one of the best and worst times of my life. But as weird as it may sound, I quit the job. My family members were really shocked and till today, have been asking me to think it over. My colleagues in the zoo have asked me to not give up too, and found it really weird for me to quit on the evaluation day because they knew I had all my scripts down.
But the reason why I quit was not because I was nervous, or stressed about the scripts. In fact, it was thanks to the scripts that I managed to learn and know so much about the animals. Well, the actual reason to why I quit was because I lost passion for hosting.
Being in the zoo gave me so much time to get to know all the staffs and animals better. And I must admit that I do envy the animals a lot, for they have the best people to take care of them; their devoted keepers. The reason why I have so much respect for the keepers is not only because they take care, clean their dens and feed the animals, but because they actually spend more time in the zoo,than with their families. In fact, all the keepers would stay overnight if their animals are sick or going to give birth. Can you imagine the number of hours they put in for these animals?
Being in the zoo also gave me time to see how the zoo was run, and how the token feeders (my job) did their job. That was where it struck me, and hard. See, the more I familiarized with the zoo, the more I wanted to do something for the animals and it's not merely talking about them, I wanted more action. Don't get me wrong, token feeders are in fact one of the most important people in the zoo, because they are actually the voice for the animals. But I guess after two weeks at the zoo, I couldn't stand the same routine done over and over again. I must say, that all the show presenters are excellent in what they do, and memorizing script isn't that easy you know. But for me, I don't think I can stay still long enough, to do the many scripts day after day. I'm not saying it's boring, it's more like, not my cup of tea. Over the past two weeks, I realized that hosting afterall wasn't my taste and as always, I still do prefer teaching.
But the animals and their keepers have indeed left a very deep mark in my heart, so I'll most probably be a volunteer there, or at the SPCA, where I would indeed get a chance to help the animals in need.
Many said that my decision was a hasty one, and some said that I was dumb to quit from a high paying job. Well, I wouldn't want to lie and say that money doesn't matter, because it does. But like what Mr Raymond Huang always say, nothing's worth doing if you ain't got the heart for it. And just like this job, I love the animals more and more each day, but as the days go by, I lose the heart for hosting.
Well, that means I'm pretty much jobless right now. It's a confusing kind of feeling you know. i want to work because it's better than being at home doing nothing. Besides earning cash during the holidays is better than bumming around, and not helping your parents with the household "crisis". But at the same time, I want to treasure my youth! And hang out with friends and catch up on the good old times.
Oh well, what's done is done. I'm still going for interviews and stuff, but if I really don't feel like it, I'd probably just help my mum out in her holiday kids programme. So friends, if you want to meet up, I'm just a call away!
Oh yah, now that I'm jobless, this gives me more time to blog! hahah.
Loves.
Saturday, November 29, 2008
Off Day
Was called by my boss last night, and was informed that all four of us OJTs were getting offs! But it does not mean that it is all play and no work, because we have to present all 12 scripts to her by Monday! Luckily I am in token 3, because the token 1 feeders actually have 18 scripts. So that makes me pretty fortunate to be in token 3.
Well, the past few days on the zoo has been rather fruitful. I got to meet more colourful personalities. And also watch how the presentors worked under pressure when there was no soundman and when they slipped wrong information of the animals.
I don't know about the rest, but the shows have been making my days more and more sian. I'm not saying the shows are sian, but watching them over and over again, makes everything so... expected. But I must applaud the presentors who made the shows possible. I mean I've been working for less than two weeks, and I'm pretty bored by the usual routine already. And yet, they who have been working for many many years, always show up and present with so much magnificence, and twinkles in their eyes, never failing to grab the attention of the audience.
Well, I am sure that it's pretty boring for me to rattle on and on about my work in the Zoo right? So, I'll end this post with a short quiz that I got tagged. I love quizzes not only because they help to take up time, but also because they let you think of things that you often never question yourself about. So here goes:
Tagged by: MUS-FI-RAWR!
1) What's your 10 most Favourite Foods.
· Sushi
· Lasagne
· I know it sounds gross, but I love Escargots (Tried it at a French Restaurant in Malaysia. Hahah)
· Tacos (I do miss Taco Bell Alot)
· Takoyaki (I'm addicted to the ones sold near my home, at Admiratly MRT station)
· Terikyaki Chicken (I like the ones sold at TakaShimaya)
· Cream Puffs from Papa Beard
· Cheesecake from DeliFrance
· StingRay Sambal Goreng from Changi Village
· Are chocolates counted?
2) 10 things I love Doing.
· Carrying my dog around the house like a baby
· Nudging my brother's head (the one with the dread locks)
· Reading books by Mitch Albom and other famous people's autobiographies
· Making fun of my mum when she mispronounces words and does funny actions
· Laughing at the exaggerated Indian Films
· Watching the Noose and America's Funniest Home videos
· Laughing, ALOT
· Creating random conversations of people (Whom I do not know) who are talking
· Heading Outdoors
· Sitting in my school's canteen(back then) and do nothing but eat Apollo and crap with the staggerized people.
3) 5 things I love doing when I'm EMO.
· Being near the sea, watching and listening to the waves and breeze. It's really soothing.
· Sleeping
· Zoning Out
· Pull a long face
· Drawing
4) 5 things I love doing when I'm happy.
· Laughing a lot, and sometimes for no apparent reason
· Creating Lame jokes and stuff to do
· Smile to myself as I recall the stuff that made me happy
· Heading outdoors or engage in sports
·Sing to myself, in my room. Hahah
5) 5 things I wish to happen
· For my mum to stop worrying about us kids
· All 3 of us kids help in supporting the family, so that we enjoy and bond as one
· All the killings and cruel abuses of animals to stop. I want to start an Animal Home.
· I want to start an Orphanage for kids too
· Lastly, I want to have decent grades for my O'levels
6) 5 types of a person of another gender I adore
I don't adore anyone right now. So I'll just give the things I observe and like, in a guy whom I don't know yet. It's like a first impressions?
· I have this nasty habit of looking at three things when I look at a guy. The first is his hair.
· The second is his clothes
· And the last is his shoes
· But all that's not important because I'd prefer someone who can talk and listen, someone who is active.
· Someone who really knows how to impress a girl, and that's definitely not by the expensive treats.
7) My 5 most addicted playlist
· Nightwish
· Metallica
· Avenged Sevenfold
· Colbie Caillat
· Matisyahu
8) 5 Person I wish to tag.
· Yiling
· Lena
· Shera
· Syuh
· Raudah
Loves.
Well, the past few days on the zoo has been rather fruitful. I got to meet more colourful personalities. And also watch how the presentors worked under pressure when there was no soundman and when they slipped wrong information of the animals.
I don't know about the rest, but the shows have been making my days more and more sian. I'm not saying the shows are sian, but watching them over and over again, makes everything so... expected. But I must applaud the presentors who made the shows possible. I mean I've been working for less than two weeks, and I'm pretty bored by the usual routine already. And yet, they who have been working for many many years, always show up and present with so much magnificence, and twinkles in their eyes, never failing to grab the attention of the audience.
Well, I am sure that it's pretty boring for me to rattle on and on about my work in the Zoo right? So, I'll end this post with a short quiz that I got tagged. I love quizzes not only because they help to take up time, but also because they let you think of things that you often never question yourself about. So here goes:
Tagged by: MUS-FI-RAWR!
1) What's your 10 most Favourite Foods.
· Sushi
· Lasagne
· I know it sounds gross, but I love Escargots (Tried it at a French Restaurant in Malaysia. Hahah)
· Tacos (I do miss Taco Bell Alot)
· Takoyaki (I'm addicted to the ones sold near my home, at Admiratly MRT station)
· Terikyaki Chicken (I like the ones sold at TakaShimaya)
· Cream Puffs from Papa Beard
· Cheesecake from DeliFrance
· StingRay Sambal Goreng from Changi Village
· Are chocolates counted?
2) 10 things I love Doing.
· Carrying my dog around the house like a baby
· Nudging my brother's head (the one with the dread locks)
· Reading books by Mitch Albom and other famous people's autobiographies
· Making fun of my mum when she mispronounces words and does funny actions
· Laughing at the exaggerated Indian Films
· Watching the Noose and America's Funniest Home videos
· Laughing, ALOT
· Creating random conversations of people (Whom I do not know) who are talking
· Heading Outdoors
· Sitting in my school's canteen(back then) and do nothing but eat Apollo and crap with the staggerized people.
3) 5 things I love doing when I'm EMO.
· Being near the sea, watching and listening to the waves and breeze. It's really soothing.
· Sleeping
· Zoning Out
· Pull a long face
· Drawing
4) 5 things I love doing when I'm happy.
· Laughing a lot, and sometimes for no apparent reason
· Creating Lame jokes and stuff to do
· Smile to myself as I recall the stuff that made me happy
· Heading outdoors or engage in sports
·Sing to myself, in my room. Hahah
5) 5 things I wish to happen
· For my mum to stop worrying about us kids
· All 3 of us kids help in supporting the family, so that we enjoy and bond as one
· All the killings and cruel abuses of animals to stop. I want to start an Animal Home.
· I want to start an Orphanage for kids too
· Lastly, I want to have decent grades for my O'levels
6) 5 types of a person of another gender I adore
I don't adore anyone right now. So I'll just give the things I observe and like, in a guy whom I don't know yet. It's like a first impressions?
· I have this nasty habit of looking at three things when I look at a guy. The first is his hair.
· The second is his clothes
· And the last is his shoes
· But all that's not important because I'd prefer someone who can talk and listen, someone who is active.
· Someone who really knows how to impress a girl, and that's definitely not by the expensive treats.
7) My 5 most addicted playlist
· Nightwish
· Metallica
· Avenged Sevenfold
· Colbie Caillat
· Matisyahu
8) 5 Person I wish to tag.
· Yiling
· Lena
· Shera
· Syuh
· Raudah
Loves.
Monday, November 24, 2008
Day 5 and 6
Well, yesterday and today were actually a blast. I not only managed to keep the dens clean, but I also got praises because I managed to catch up with the faster ones.
There were a couple of hiccups in between, like when I got shoved in the chest by a guy during crowd control. He was apparently not satisfied and did not want to listen to me, thus forcing his way past me, into the already fully packed amphitheater where the show "The Rainforest Fights Back" was on. Not forgetting our Minister Of Defence, Mr Teo Chee Hean, being present yesterday.
But there were many events that covered up the unhappiness. I got alot of waves of goodbyes by the visitors. And for the first time in my Life, spoke Mandarin in the zoo. I even directed some of them to their whereabouts in Mandarin!
Kids blew kisses and adults thank me. I guess that was enough to make my day much happier.
But on a serious note, tomorrow's my evaluation day. And I am a tad bit nervous. It has not been my first speaking infront of people. But this is definitely a first in trying to memorise 4 scripts, regurgitating them in the best tone and fluency, in front of two "judges".
Let's just hope I make it through Doom's Day tomorrow. Hahah.
And for those who texted and tagged me and offered me encouragments, thank you very much. It may seem "aiyah, like that only ah...", but it's the little encouragements like this that actually do motivate a person into achieving his/her goals. Thank you for being my pillar of support!
If I do get the job, find me when you want to have lunch at KFC, got 35% off! hahaha.
Take care. Loves.
There were a couple of hiccups in between, like when I got shoved in the chest by a guy during crowd control. He was apparently not satisfied and did not want to listen to me, thus forcing his way past me, into the already fully packed amphitheater where the show "The Rainforest Fights Back" was on. Not forgetting our Minister Of Defence, Mr Teo Chee Hean, being present yesterday.
But there were many events that covered up the unhappiness. I got alot of waves of goodbyes by the visitors. And for the first time in my Life, spoke Mandarin in the zoo. I even directed some of them to their whereabouts in Mandarin!
Kids blew kisses and adults thank me. I guess that was enough to make my day much happier.
But on a serious note, tomorrow's my evaluation day. And I am a tad bit nervous. It has not been my first speaking infront of people. But this is definitely a first in trying to memorise 4 scripts, regurgitating them in the best tone and fluency, in front of two "judges".
Let's just hope I make it through Doom's Day tomorrow. Hahah.
And for those who texted and tagged me and offered me encouragments, thank you very much. It may seem "aiyah, like that only ah...", but it's the little encouragements like this that actually do motivate a person into achieving his/her goals. Thank you for being my pillar of support!
If I do get the job, find me when you want to have lunch at KFC, got 35% off! hahaha.
Take care. Loves.
Friday, November 21, 2008
3rd Day At The Zoo
No words cam describe the state of exhaustion that I am in.
For the past three days:
I am dead beat, but am still looking forward to the evaluation day which would be next Tuesday. Then, I'll be a confirmed Part-Time staff!
And if you're curious, I actually prefer cleaning the dens! But they said that I am a slow cleaner. :(
Want perfect dens must take longer mah, right? Unless I get to be Terminator again! Hahaha.
Loves.
For the past three days:
- I got lost on my way to the reporting office on my second day.
- I got lost twice in the zoo.
- Because of the above mentioned, I walked around the entire zoo just to find the places, which were in fact side by side
- I have to memorize 7-8 pages of script. But I'm being selective, so I'm down with two, and maybe two more?
- I feel dehydrated because I have not been hydrating myself with enough fluid
- I have done the cleanings of Lemurs and Rabbits.
- I realized that Rabbit's poo actually looks like the daily morning Milo cereals that I eat everyday.
- I got a chance to be Terminator, because I got to clean the dens with jet sprays.
- Made a fool out of myself many times.
- Watched all the shows in the zoo for at least 5 times.
- Made many great friends
- I got a chance to try to spot the different animals with their names, but they all still looked the same to me. Except the show elephants.
- I have been walking around the zoo from 8pm to 4.45pm everyday, with breaks in between.
- I have been having some ups and downs, but everyday brings new surprises.
I am dead beat, but am still looking forward to the evaluation day which would be next Tuesday. Then, I'll be a confirmed Part-Time staff!
And if you're curious, I actually prefer cleaning the dens! But they said that I am a slow cleaner. :(
Want perfect dens must take longer mah, right? Unless I get to be Terminator again! Hahaha.
Loves.
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
Live Your Life
Have you ever been in a situation where you didn't want to lie, yet couldn't tell the truth?
Have you ever been in a situation where you said something but never meant it?
Have you ever been in a situation where you were so afraid of what others thought about you that you had to lie, in order to be noticed?
Have you ever tried being noticed or successful by doing something that you knew was wrong?
Have you ever feared whether others hated you?
Have you ever had doubts in yourself?
I admit that I agree to some of the things mentioned above. I did things, many stupid things just because I was bored, or because my friends did them.
I used to doubt myself and was worried about what others thought about me. I tried my best to change myself, to please the others. But I failed to do one thing, the very one thing that means the most to us; to please myself with who I was. I did not like who I was, and so I slowly pulled away from them, and be who I wanted myself to be.
The past few years, especially in Secondary School, had put me in many situations where I was in a dilemma, to whether or not lie, or tell the truth. Sometimes I chose to lie, sometimes I told the truth. Both ways, I gained and lost friends. But I was sick of it.
Some people think that lying is the greatest sin of all, and that liars, are not good enough to have friends. Well, I'd say that's just some made up crap. Everyone lies. I lie not because I want to, or because I did something bad. But it's because of protecting someone or something. But again, I'm sick of it all.
That is why, I am sort of glad to leave secondary school life, leaving all the bad incidents behind. And just living my Life.
Live Your Life Video
Have you ever been in a situation where you said something but never meant it?
Have you ever been in a situation where you were so afraid of what others thought about you that you had to lie, in order to be noticed?
Have you ever tried being noticed or successful by doing something that you knew was wrong?
Have you ever feared whether others hated you?
Have you ever had doubts in yourself?
I admit that I agree to some of the things mentioned above. I did things, many stupid things just because I was bored, or because my friends did them.
I used to doubt myself and was worried about what others thought about me. I tried my best to change myself, to please the others. But I failed to do one thing, the very one thing that means the most to us; to please myself with who I was. I did not like who I was, and so I slowly pulled away from them, and be who I wanted myself to be.
The past few years, especially in Secondary School, had put me in many situations where I was in a dilemma, to whether or not lie, or tell the truth. Sometimes I chose to lie, sometimes I told the truth. Both ways, I gained and lost friends. But I was sick of it.
Some people think that lying is the greatest sin of all, and that liars, are not good enough to have friends. Well, I'd say that's just some made up crap. Everyone lies. I lie not because I want to, or because I did something bad. But it's because of protecting someone or something. But again, I'm sick of it all.
That is why, I am sort of glad to leave secondary school life, leaving all the bad incidents behind. And just living my Life.
Live Your Life Video
Thursday, October 23, 2008
SKA-P
The past few days have given me nothing but tingles down my spine.
I have seen numerous people break down just before, and after the examination papers due to stress. This whole freaking out thing came as a wake-up call for me as I realized how severe things would be if I failed.
Just the thought of failing the O' level examinations made me panicked. I have been wasting four years of my Life without fully focusing on my studies. Even till now, I am watching cartoons and sleeping in till late afternoons. Despite freaking myself out a little, I just can't seem to push myself hard enough to mug, literally. I have never pushed myself to the farthest I could go, even when I was a kid, and i guess it's still the same now.
Friends who know me always nickname me the "bo-chap" one. I guess it's true.
But nevertheless, I just hope that everyone does well, and get into the courses they want. As for me, well, let's just see. I prefer to live day by day, letting nature take its course, rather than freak myself out with the many "what-if"s.
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Anyway, I think everyone needs a break. And so I would like to share some things about a band that I recently heard of.
They are called: SKA-P
(Taken from Wikipedia.org)
In case you have no idea what an anarchist is, I've got it checked out for you!
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(From Dictionary.com)
[an-er-kist] Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation
In simpler terms, they are a bunch of rebel who go or rather, sing against the Government.
Even though I have no idea what they are singing, I love the beats of the music. I find it rather unique to mix both punk and Mexican beats, while making them blend all at the same time. The songs just make you want to jump off your chair and dance along to the beat!
Here are some of the videos.
Intifada
El Vas Del Obrero
McDollar
Cannabis
That's all for now.
And, to all out there, please don't freak yourself out. A break every once in awhile is good for you. It's better than stressing yourself out, and ending up totally blank during the examinations. Do take care.
I have seen numerous people break down just before, and after the examination papers due to stress. This whole freaking out thing came as a wake-up call for me as I realized how severe things would be if I failed.
Just the thought of failing the O' level examinations made me panicked. I have been wasting four years of my Life without fully focusing on my studies. Even till now, I am watching cartoons and sleeping in till late afternoons. Despite freaking myself out a little, I just can't seem to push myself hard enough to mug, literally. I have never pushed myself to the farthest I could go, even when I was a kid, and i guess it's still the same now.
Friends who know me always nickname me the "bo-chap" one. I guess it's true.
But nevertheless, I just hope that everyone does well, and get into the courses they want. As for me, well, let's just see. I prefer to live day by day, letting nature take its course, rather than freak myself out with the many "what-if"s.
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Anyway, I think everyone needs a break. And so I would like to share some things about a band that I recently heard of.
They are called: SKA-P
(Taken from Wikipedia.org)
Ska-P (pronounced [ɛsˈkape]) is a ska punk band formed in Madrid (Vallecas), Spain, in 1994, that could be categorized, politically, as an anarchist musical group. It is one of the most popular ska bands in Spain and Europe.
Musically, despite their fun image, Ska-P has well-rehearsed and tight arrangements, and as of 2002, includes among its members a small but striking brass section which gives the band a powerful sound.
Their nonconformist attitude is also evident in their eccentric haircuts. Some band members have mohawks while others are almost bald-shaven (with a ponytail at the back).
-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------In case you have no idea what an anarchist is, I've got it checked out for you!
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(From Dictionary.com)
4 dictionary results for: anarchist
Dictionary.com Unabridged (v 1.1) - Cite This Source - Share This an·ar·chist [an-er-kist] Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation –noun
| 1. | a person who advocates or believes in anarchy or anarchism. |
| 2. | a person who seeks to overturn by violence all constituted forms and institutions of society and government, with no purpose of establishing any other system of order in the place of that destroyed. |
| 3. | a person who promotes disorder or excites revolt against any established rule, law, or custom. |
In simpler terms, they are a bunch of rebel who go or rather, sing against the Government.
Even though I have no idea what they are singing, I love the beats of the music. I find it rather unique to mix both punk and Mexican beats, while making them blend all at the same time. The songs just make you want to jump off your chair and dance along to the beat!
Here are some of the videos.
Intifada
El Vas Del Obrero
McDollar
Cannabis
That's all for now.
And, to all out there, please don't freak yourself out. A break every once in awhile is good for you. It's better than stressing yourself out, and ending up totally blank during the examinations. Do take care.
Thursday, September 25, 2008
Stress
What is stress?
Is it a self-planted feeling that you put in place when you see others freaking out?
Is it the desperation to break down because you can't meet the deadline?
Is it the sort of feeling where the whole world seems to not understand you, and that you're left on your own to deal with everything?
Is it the period of time for you to turn anorexic?
Is it the time to roll your eyes at every low-class peasant, and punch the high class bimbos?
or is it...
From wikipedia.org:
stress /strɛs/ Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciation[stres] Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation
–noun
1. importance or significance attached to a thing; emphasis: to lay stress upon good manners.
2. Phonetics. emphasis in the form of prominent relative loudness of a syllable or a word as a result of special effort in utterance.
3. Prosody. accent or emphasis on syllables in a metrical pattern; beat.
4. emphasis in melody, rhythm, etc.; beat.
5. the physical pressure, pull, or other force exerted on one thing by another; strain.
6. Mechanics. a. the action on a body of any system of balanced forces whereby strain or deformation results.
b. the amount of stress, usually measured in pounds per square inch or in pascals.
c. a load, force, or system of forces producing a strain.
d. the internal resistance or reaction of an elastic body to the external forces applied to it.
e. the ratio of force to area.
7. Physiology. a specific response by the body to a stimulus, as fear or pain, that disturbs or interferes with the normal physiological equilibrium of an organism.
8. physical, mental, or emotional strain or tension: Worry over his job and his wife's health put him under a great stress.
9. a situation, occurrence, or factor causing this: The stress of being trapped in the elevator gave him a pounding headache.
10. Archaic. strong or straining exertion.
–verb (used with object)
11. to lay stress on; emphasize.
12. Phonetics. to pronounce (a syllable or a word) with prominent loudness: Stress the first syllable of “runner.” Stress the second word in “put up with.” Compare accent (def. 18).
13. to subject to stress or strain.
14. Mechanics. to subject to stress.
[Origin: 1275–1325; (n.) ME stresse, aph. var. of distresse distress; (v.) deriv. of the n.]
—Related forms
stressless, adjective
stress·less·ness, noun
—Synonyms 8. anxiety, burden, pressure, worry.
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Every living creature faces and has to deal with stress.
Let's start with ourselves.
When you're a sperm swimming up to the egg, you're stressed out because...
a)You only have one tail, and that makes it harder to swim faster
b) You have to beat the other millions of clones to reach the egg first.
c) Everyone else looks like you and you don't have your own style
d) The egg's membrane is so hard to penetrate through.
When you're in the womb of your mom, you're stressed out because ....
a) You're claustrophobic
b) You have to swim about in the Amniotic Fluid
c) You're feel like removing the umbilical cord attached to your belly button, because you can't scratch you belly but you can't because it's the only way for you to get food.
d) You're sick and tired of eating the same food that your mom eats over and over again.
e) You hate it when your mom visits the doctor as they invade your privacy and spot your gender. The meaner parents aborts you if they don't like your gender.
f) You're annoyed at how your parents don't understand you. When you kick in her belly, instead of letting you out, she goes "oooh, he's kicking!"
When you become a kid, you're stressed because....
a) You are ashamed of your parents who talk to you like a bunch of retards, going "goo-goo gaga, mum-mum, pee-pee, poo-poo, orh-orh" and all.
b) They keep rattling the baby rattle in front of your face and you don't like it.
c) They make you wear pink(girl) and blue (boy).
d) They get all excited over the littlest and dumbest things like you did.
e) They make you pee and poo in bowls that looked like Abraham Lincoln's hat.
f) They make you wear funny looking absorbers (diapers) that does nothing good but give butt rash.
g) They throw you into a swimming pool and brag that you can swim naturally.
h) They laugh when you choke on your drink
i) They take videos of you and send them to Youtube, America's funniest home video, or simply
show it to the entire world.
j) They make you wear noisy squeaky shoes that annoy you more than the neighbour trying to
sleep.
When you become an Adolescent, you're stressed because...
a) You have a zit
b) You had a bad hair day
c) Your crush (that belongs solely to you) was talking to another girl
d) Your crush (that belongs solely to you) didn't turn to look or wave at you
e) Your other half dumped you
f) You think you're not attractive (anymore)
g) Someone forgot your birthday
h) No one complimented on your new look ie : new hairdo, mascara, shirt, jeans etc...
i) The teacher/Principal wants to see you.
j) Your parents don't let you go out
k) Your parents didn't give you an allowance
l) You think no one understands you and thoughts of suicide come to mind
m) No one cares whether you're attempting suicide (fake or real).
When you become an Adult, you're stressed (not that sure on this one, as I am still a teen) because.........
a) No one irons for you your clothes, so you have to do EVERYTHING on your own
b) You don't have enough money
c) Inflation
d) You don't have time for leisure
e) The petrol prices are increasing
f) There is always traffic jams on your way to ANYWHERE
g) Your boss is so demanding. And he wants you to do EVERYTHING, even to make coffee.
h) There are so many tight datelines (dead lines) for you to meet
i) Your house is so messy, and the rents/ bills aren't paid.
j) More ERP on the way
Life's so stressful. So how do you cope?
You don't have to see a doctor, psychiatrist or do any voodoo on your boss.
Just...
And do a little prayer for yourself:
Is it a self-planted feeling that you put in place when you see others freaking out?
Is it the desperation to break down because you can't meet the deadline?
Is it the sort of feeling where the whole world seems to not understand you, and that you're left on your own to deal with everything?
Is it the period of time for you to turn anorexic?
Is it the time to roll your eyes at every low-class peasant, and punch the high class bimbos?
or is it...
From wikipedia.org:
stress /strɛs/ Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciation[stres] Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation
–noun
1. importance or significance attached to a thing; emphasis: to lay stress upon good manners.
2. Phonetics. emphasis in the form of prominent relative loudness of a syllable or a word as a result of special effort in utterance.
3. Prosody. accent or emphasis on syllables in a metrical pattern; beat.
4. emphasis in melody, rhythm, etc.; beat.
5. the physical pressure, pull, or other force exerted on one thing by another; strain.
6. Mechanics. a. the action on a body of any system of balanced forces whereby strain or deformation results.
b. the amount of stress, usually measured in pounds per square inch or in pascals.
c. a load, force, or system of forces producing a strain.
d. the internal resistance or reaction of an elastic body to the external forces applied to it.
e. the ratio of force to area.
7. Physiology. a specific response by the body to a stimulus, as fear or pain, that disturbs or interferes with the normal physiological equilibrium of an organism.
8. physical, mental, or emotional strain or tension: Worry over his job and his wife's health put him under a great stress.
9. a situation, occurrence, or factor causing this: The stress of being trapped in the elevator gave him a pounding headache.
10. Archaic. strong or straining exertion.
–verb (used with object)
11. to lay stress on; emphasize.
12. Phonetics. to pronounce (a syllable or a word) with prominent loudness: Stress the first syllable of “runner.” Stress the second word in “put up with.” Compare accent (def. 18).
13. to subject to stress or strain.
14. Mechanics. to subject to stress.
[Origin: 1275–1325; (n.) ME stresse, aph. var. of distresse distress; (v.) deriv. of the n.]
—Related forms
stressless, adjective
stress·less·ness, noun
—Synonyms 8. anxiety, burden, pressure, worry.
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Every living creature faces and has to deal with stress.
Let's start with ourselves.
When you're a sperm swimming up to the egg, you're stressed out because...
a)You only have one tail, and that makes it harder to swim faster
b) You have to beat the other millions of clones to reach the egg first.
c) Everyone else looks like you and you don't have your own style
d) The egg's membrane is so hard to penetrate through.
When you're in the womb of your mom, you're stressed out because ....
a) You're claustrophobic
b) You have to swim about in the Amniotic Fluid
c) You're feel like removing the umbilical cord attached to your belly button, because you can't scratch you belly but you can't because it's the only way for you to get food.
d) You're sick and tired of eating the same food that your mom eats over and over again.
e) You hate it when your mom visits the doctor as they invade your privacy and spot your gender. The meaner parents aborts you if they don't like your gender.
f) You're annoyed at how your parents don't understand you. When you kick in her belly, instead of letting you out, she goes "oooh, he's kicking!"
When you become a kid, you're stressed because....
a) You are ashamed of your parents who talk to you like a bunch of retards, going "goo-goo gaga, mum-mum, pee-pee, poo-poo, orh-orh" and all.
b) They keep rattling the baby rattle in front of your face and you don't like it.
c) They make you wear pink(girl) and blue (boy).
d) They get all excited over the littlest and dumbest things like you did.
e) They make you pee and poo in bowls that looked like Abraham Lincoln's hat.
f) They make you wear funny looking absorbers (diapers) that does nothing good but give butt rash.
g) They throw you into a swimming pool and brag that you can swim naturally.
h) They laugh when you choke on your drink
i) They take videos of you and send them to Youtube, America's funniest home video, or simply
show it to the entire world.
j) They make you wear noisy squeaky shoes that annoy you more than the neighbour trying to
sleep.
When you become an Adolescent, you're stressed because...
a) You have a zit
b) You had a bad hair day
c) Your crush (that belongs solely to you) was talking to another girl
d) Your crush (that belongs solely to you) didn't turn to look or wave at you
e) Your other half dumped you
f) You think you're not attractive (anymore)
g) Someone forgot your birthday
h) No one complimented on your new look ie : new hairdo, mascara, shirt, jeans etc...
i) The teacher/Principal wants to see you.
j) Your parents don't let you go out
k) Your parents didn't give you an allowance
l) You think no one understands you and thoughts of suicide come to mind
m) No one cares whether you're attempting suicide (fake or real).
When you become an Adult, you're stressed (not that sure on this one, as I am still a teen) because.........
a) No one irons for you your clothes, so you have to do EVERYTHING on your own
b) You don't have enough money
c) Inflation
d) You don't have time for leisure
e) The petrol prices are increasing
f) There is always traffic jams on your way to ANYWHERE
g) Your boss is so demanding. And he wants you to do EVERYTHING, even to make coffee.
h) There are so many tight datelines (dead lines) for you to meet
i) Your house is so messy, and the rents/ bills aren't paid.
j) More ERP on the way
Life's so stressful. So how do you cope?
You don't have to see a doctor, psychiatrist or do any voodoo on your boss.
Just...
And do a little prayer for yourself:
Saturday, September 20, 2008
Don't give up
I guess people have the point of time in Lifr where they question not only themselves but their beliefs. We often in doubt, so much that we turn to others for words of advice, and encouragement.
I would like to thank all those who tagged on my blog, encouraging me not to give up blogging. These little words of encouragement do make a difference as it shows that there are at least some people out there who appreciate reading my blog; with the interests that I share in my Life.
Putting that aside, I would like to add that today's the last day for the Games Convention Asia 2008. Click Here.
It's FREE . And if you'd like to get a chance to play EA's newest game, SPORE, you'd better hurry up!
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This week has passed rather quickly, despite the dreadfulness of recieving the examination results and the continuous "encouraging and inspiring" nags from the disappointed teachers.
I would not say that I am very delighted with my results, nor am I disappointed with them. It's more of a so-so kind of feeling.
But this week showed me how examinations can affect people, especially my friends. They either pressurize themselves by breaking down and forcing themselves to study every single day from now onwards, or they just GIVE UP.
I've never been that stressed out for exams before, so I have no idea on what to say or do when I see friends breaking down (especially this) , stressing out or simply giving up. But all I can say now is that, no matter what, never let it control you, you always have the upperhand in things, so don't give up.
I hate it when people use the word "HOW".
I grew up in a family who rarely used the word HOW. Instead we find alternatives that may help to solve the problem. We found solutions, not add problems to worsen, and so over the years, I became more and more intolerant to people, especially the whiney ones who always asked "HOW?" And so I'd like to apologize if I had blown up at anyone when the "HOW" word was used, because time to time, it's really sickening to see someone whine "how this, how that" so much, instead of finding a way out. hahah.
I would like to thank all those who tagged on my blog, encouraging me not to give up blogging. These little words of encouragement do make a difference as it shows that there are at least some people out there who appreciate reading my blog; with the interests that I share in my Life.
Putting that aside, I would like to add that today's the last day for the Games Convention Asia 2008. Click Here.
It's FREE . And if you'd like to get a chance to play EA's newest game, SPORE, you'd better hurry up!
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This week has passed rather quickly, despite the dreadfulness of recieving the examination results and the continuous "encouraging and inspiring" nags from the disappointed teachers.
I would not say that I am very delighted with my results, nor am I disappointed with them. It's more of a so-so kind of feeling.
But this week showed me how examinations can affect people, especially my friends. They either pressurize themselves by breaking down and forcing themselves to study every single day from now onwards, or they just GIVE UP.
I've never been that stressed out for exams before, so I have no idea on what to say or do when I see friends breaking down (especially this) , stressing out or simply giving up. But all I can say now is that, no matter what, never let it control you, you always have the upperhand in things, so don't give up.
I hate it when people use the word "HOW".
I grew up in a family who rarely used the word HOW. Instead we find alternatives that may help to solve the problem. We found solutions, not add problems to worsen, and so over the years, I became more and more intolerant to people, especially the whiney ones who always asked "HOW?" And so I'd like to apologize if I had blown up at anyone when the "HOW" word was used, because time to time, it's really sickening to see someone whine "how this, how that" so much, instead of finding a way out. hahah.
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
Mums always have the best advises
It's been a while since I last blogged, and apologies for that, as everyone should know, Preliminary Exams are here. Yes, this is the time where all the Youth bloggers at the age of 16 would rant on and on about how pathetic their papers were, and how disappointed they were as they did not get the questions that they had prepared for. It's funny yet annoying sometimes to see how people exaggerate on how much they are going to fail, yet the results are contradicting as they score one of the highest. Are they trying to blend in with those who seriously feel that they are going to fail just so that people would not think that they are show offs?
But I'm not going to touch anymore on the papers, because it would definitely dampen everyone's mood. No?
Moving on.
I met up with some old friends yesterday and we were thankful that we finally could meet up. We just sat around and reminisced about the past, from our childish and playful act to our nerdy dressings back then. And the realization of how time passed soon dawned upon me.
Most of us back then had the "Wah lao, secondasry school faster come, then after that work, then work got money then marry". Yes, most of us had the same typical misinterpretation of how easy Life was going to be.
But now, we're split into two. One, are the people who are still stuck in the Primary School mindset where they go around saying "wah, faster study, then go poly, then work. Got gf/bf, then enough money then marry".
Yet on the other hand, there's Two, where most of us fall in ;
"Wah lao, go back to Primary School better. Now Secondary School like shit loh, study study, then so stress, so many homework. Go poly sure die, no need to even talk about JC. Then no further studies = no job, so how to work and marry? Bf/Gf now everytime fight here fight there, say no time for them, so how to marry? Mother, father also one kind, either work and work don't want to rest, or everytime ask us do this do that for them. Wah lao, sibei stress ah. Die liao lah".
Don't you agree?
I went home that night deep in thought and poured out everything to my mum once I reached home. If you haven't noticed, my mum is like a best friend to me. I open up to her not only about school issues, but family, BGR and friendship too. I don't know how or why, but my mum always has the best advises to everything, and I confide in her even for the littlest things like having the courage to overcome the Mother Tongue O'level Examinations.
Anyway, I told my mum about how stressed out most of my friends were, which puts me in a difficult position as I have no idea on how to help them, at the same time, I fear for myself as I might be one of them to fail the Examinations too.
I wouldn't be disappointed but I fear that it would be a setback to my dad who had pinned high hopes for me, and even made arrangements for me to study overseas. And then, it would also be a disappointment to my mum as I had promised her that I would lead a successful career. But like what I mentioned earlier, no further education = no pleasant career. So how?
It was heartening to hear from her as she encouraged me to do my best, and even if I failed, there would definitely be a way to get through it, be it repeating the Exams, or getting a career elsewhere. She said, promises are often broken, and so long as I did my best, she would be contented, and I shouldn't fear the disappointment of my dad as this would only pressurize me. She said that she believes in me reaching my ambitious goals and would definitely be all out for me. The last few sentences she told me, left me thinking deeply. She said "The reason why we want you to do well, is so that you won't fall in the same footsteps at us. We want you to be better, but it doesn't mean academically, but improve as a person. Results on a paper doesn't mean anything if you got poor attitude. So take a step at a time, and you'll soon find success knocking on your door".
While she was talking, I had my English Composition in my head. I talked about a low self esteem girl who gained confidence after saving that day. And the topic I talked about was, of a girl who came from a intellignet, royal family but was often patronized by her relatives for being the only stupid one. But she soon showed her worth as she saved a girl from drowning in the strong currents. She was a hero. This incident spurred her as she was asked to join the National swimming team, and she has become successful ever since. Nt only did her realtives shut up, but she gained her confidence and opened up her circle of friends. She showed that being successful does not necessarily mean you have to do good in academics.
And the song "Take A Step At A Time" by Jordin Sparks kept playing on and on in my head.
Is this a sign? hahah.
Anyway, tomorrow's Teachers' Day and I would like to wish all Teachers and Staffs,
A VERY HAPPY TEACHERS' AND STAFF APPRECIATION DAY!
Oh yah, my mum who's a Tuition Teacher, received a few gifts today, and it was interesting to see her, yet again in her child like manner, opening the gifts one by one, exclaiming at how cute the little key chains were, and stuff like that.
Oh, and her water babies are growing well, they're big and swollen? hahaha. And she still does pop into my room every now and then to touch the water babies and to check if they "have given birth". Hahaha.
By the way, any kind souls willing to lend me a Pink outfit? Apparently, Omy.sg wants the finalists to appear in Pink on the night of the revelation of the results.
Pink, being my least favourite color, is of course an unlikely color to appear in my wardrobe. And so, I have no Pink outfits at all! Help!!!!
Good night!
But I'm not going to touch anymore on the papers, because it would definitely dampen everyone's mood. No?
Moving on.
I met up with some old friends yesterday and we were thankful that we finally could meet up. We just sat around and reminisced about the past, from our childish and playful act to our nerdy dressings back then. And the realization of how time passed soon dawned upon me.
Most of us back then had the "Wah lao, secondasry school faster come, then after that work, then work got money then marry". Yes, most of us had the same typical misinterpretation of how easy Life was going to be.
But now, we're split into two. One, are the people who are still stuck in the Primary School mindset where they go around saying "wah, faster study, then go poly, then work. Got gf/bf, then enough money then marry".
Yet on the other hand, there's Two, where most of us fall in ;
"Wah lao, go back to Primary School better. Now Secondary School like shit loh, study study, then so stress, so many homework. Go poly sure die, no need to even talk about JC. Then no further studies = no job, so how to work and marry? Bf/Gf now everytime fight here fight there, say no time for them, so how to marry? Mother, father also one kind, either work and work don't want to rest, or everytime ask us do this do that for them. Wah lao, sibei stress ah. Die liao lah".
Don't you agree?
I went home that night deep in thought and poured out everything to my mum once I reached home. If you haven't noticed, my mum is like a best friend to me. I open up to her not only about school issues, but family, BGR and friendship too. I don't know how or why, but my mum always has the best advises to everything, and I confide in her even for the littlest things like having the courage to overcome the Mother Tongue O'level Examinations.
Anyway, I told my mum about how stressed out most of my friends were, which puts me in a difficult position as I have no idea on how to help them, at the same time, I fear for myself as I might be one of them to fail the Examinations too.
I wouldn't be disappointed but I fear that it would be a setback to my dad who had pinned high hopes for me, and even made arrangements for me to study overseas. And then, it would also be a disappointment to my mum as I had promised her that I would lead a successful career. But like what I mentioned earlier, no further education = no pleasant career. So how?
It was heartening to hear from her as she encouraged me to do my best, and even if I failed, there would definitely be a way to get through it, be it repeating the Exams, or getting a career elsewhere. She said, promises are often broken, and so long as I did my best, she would be contented, and I shouldn't fear the disappointment of my dad as this would only pressurize me. She said that she believes in me reaching my ambitious goals and would definitely be all out for me. The last few sentences she told me, left me thinking deeply. She said "The reason why we want you to do well, is so that you won't fall in the same footsteps at us. We want you to be better, but it doesn't mean academically, but improve as a person. Results on a paper doesn't mean anything if you got poor attitude. So take a step at a time, and you'll soon find success knocking on your door".
While she was talking, I had my English Composition in my head. I talked about a low self esteem girl who gained confidence after saving that day. And the topic I talked about was, of a girl who came from a intellignet, royal family but was often patronized by her relatives for being the only stupid one. But she soon showed her worth as she saved a girl from drowning in the strong currents. She was a hero. This incident spurred her as she was asked to join the National swimming team, and she has become successful ever since. Nt only did her realtives shut up, but she gained her confidence and opened up her circle of friends. She showed that being successful does not necessarily mean you have to do good in academics.
And the song "Take A Step At A Time" by Jordin Sparks kept playing on and on in my head.
Is this a sign? hahah.
Anyway, tomorrow's Teachers' Day and I would like to wish all Teachers and Staffs,
A VERY HAPPY TEACHERS' AND STAFF APPRECIATION DAY!
Oh yah, my mum who's a Tuition Teacher, received a few gifts today, and it was interesting to see her, yet again in her child like manner, opening the gifts one by one, exclaiming at how cute the little key chains were, and stuff like that.
Oh, and her water babies are growing well, they're big and swollen? hahaha. And she still does pop into my room every now and then to touch the water babies and to check if they "have given birth". Hahaha.
By the way, any kind souls willing to lend me a Pink outfit? Apparently, Omy.sg wants the finalists to appear in Pink on the night of the revelation of the results.
Pink, being my least favourite color, is of course an unlikely color to appear in my wardrobe. And so, I have no Pink outfits at all! Help!!!!
Good night!
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
Please give US a break.
I love reading the New Paper. (even though teachers encourage us to read the Straits Times more often, because the format of New Paper is more of a Singlish paper than straits times.) I personally feel that the New Paper, although lack the amount of news around the world, is more interesting to read, mainly because it caters to the needs of youths nowadays because most of us are only interested, more like KPO in only the latest buzz that may affect us(in a hip,cool approach). No offense, but I think that the New Paper isn't as boring as the other papers.
Anyway, I'll always skim through the papers, only stopping at pages that catches my attention. And one of the pages did. It's an article done by one of my favorite news editors, Mr Santokh Singh(father figures).
He wrote an article about pressurizing school has become with all the school holidays used as for remedial classes, Community Involvement Programmes (CIP) and even CCAs.
I couldn't stop nodding in agreement at every paragraph that was there. If the article had been any longer, I would have suffered strains on my neck muscle.
Anyway, here's my point of view.
I agree with Mr Santokh that MOE did include these school breaks to practically give EVERYONE a break, and this means that students like me, get a chance to relief myself from both stressful school time-tables and attending any extra classes.
It's because if these make-up lessons during the holidays, that causes my family to have to cancel the holiday plans. And I definitely think it's not fair. Where did the importance of family bonding go? Are school and results more important than family?
I know most of you would say " Aiyah, so easy, skip school lah. It's your choice what."
Although it sounds easy, it is actually harder to do it.
Teachers have often said that Choices have consequences, and that our decision to skip lessons is our choice because in the end, its our results.
But when we do skip their lessons, they rant on and on about how unappreciated they feel about their efforts to help us. Teachers always say that if they are willing to plan for the lessons, sacrifice their holiday plans to conduct lessons, then why can't we students appreciate it, and at least attend it?
Teachers have this manipulative way of making us students feel guilty whenever we skip their classes. But I don't blame them.
Principals definitely want their school to rise up to fame, especially Academic wise. But they often twist their words, into saying that the reason why they're pushing us, isn't because they want fame, but because they want us to excel.
But isn't it a little ironic? We excel so that we can bring ourselves and the school to fame isn't it?
But I don't blame the Principals though, especially my school's principal because she never fail to find ways to help us excel. With Adam Khoo workshops and talks by Dr. William Tan and more. I have feeling that she REALLY wants us to succeed.
And it boils down to MOE.
MOE is the one who is responsible for the syllabus and things that we learn in school. Knowing that schools always have insufficient time to complete all the syllabus for the graduating students, why do they still add more chapters into the books then? Is the MOE trying to compete with the increasing science technologies? Why are they pushing us so hard? Secondary 4s are learning A' levels work now, so when we go to poly or JC, are we expected to learn U stuff?
Are we going to increase it constantly, that 10 years down the road, you'll see K2s learning Geometry and Matrices?
So much for increasing the retiring age when most of the elderly would still be jobless because employers now seek for academic levels and not experience.
I'm sure with the growing population, there would be tonnes of jobs made available, but let's not forget the flow of foreigners coming to Singapore. Will Singaporeans themselves lose out in the race?
Why can't we be like some parts of Australia, where they don't offer examinations to students? Isn't this a better way for job applicants to get jobs through what they know and what they can do, and not by their leaving certificates? Wouldn't this give the elderlies opportunities to get jobs as well?
After all, the exams are to be blamed for students committing suicide because of poor results and stress. It's because of exams, thats why students are competing for better results. True, we want Singapore to become a flawless country, with others envying us. But I feel that it's too pressurizing for students, teachers, principals, and even parents.
WE ALL NEED A BREAK.
*This post is to state how I feel. A teacher once said, "Don't blame others for what has happened. Wonder who you should blame? Find the last two letters of blame, and it reads ME. Blame yourself".
But if we continue to blame ourselves for everything, especially the stressful workload from school, the later generations would definitely suffer depression, seriously.
Anyway, I'll always skim through the papers, only stopping at pages that catches my attention. And one of the pages did. It's an article done by one of my favorite news editors, Mr Santokh Singh(father figures).
He wrote an article about pressurizing school has become with all the school holidays used as for remedial classes, Community Involvement Programmes (CIP) and even CCAs.
I couldn't stop nodding in agreement at every paragraph that was there. If the article had been any longer, I would have suffered strains on my neck muscle.
Anyway, here's my point of view.
I agree with Mr Santokh that MOE did include these school breaks to practically give EVERYONE a break, and this means that students like me, get a chance to relief myself from both stressful school time-tables and attending any extra classes.
It's because if these make-up lessons during the holidays, that causes my family to have to cancel the holiday plans. And I definitely think it's not fair. Where did the importance of family bonding go? Are school and results more important than family?
I know most of you would say " Aiyah, so easy, skip school lah. It's your choice what."
Although it sounds easy, it is actually harder to do it.
Teachers have often said that Choices have consequences, and that our decision to skip lessons is our choice because in the end, its our results.
But when we do skip their lessons, they rant on and on about how unappreciated they feel about their efforts to help us. Teachers always say that if they are willing to plan for the lessons, sacrifice their holiday plans to conduct lessons, then why can't we students appreciate it, and at least attend it?
Teachers have this manipulative way of making us students feel guilty whenever we skip their classes. But I don't blame them.
Principals definitely want their school to rise up to fame, especially Academic wise. But they often twist their words, into saying that the reason why they're pushing us, isn't because they want fame, but because they want us to excel.
But isn't it a little ironic? We excel so that we can bring ourselves and the school to fame isn't it?
But I don't blame the Principals though, especially my school's principal because she never fail to find ways to help us excel. With Adam Khoo workshops and talks by Dr. William Tan and more. I have feeling that she REALLY wants us to succeed.
And it boils down to MOE.
MOE is the one who is responsible for the syllabus and things that we learn in school. Knowing that schools always have insufficient time to complete all the syllabus for the graduating students, why do they still add more chapters into the books then? Is the MOE trying to compete with the increasing science technologies? Why are they pushing us so hard? Secondary 4s are learning A' levels work now, so when we go to poly or JC, are we expected to learn U stuff?
Are we going to increase it constantly, that 10 years down the road, you'll see K2s learning Geometry and Matrices?
So much for increasing the retiring age when most of the elderly would still be jobless because employers now seek for academic levels and not experience.
I'm sure with the growing population, there would be tonnes of jobs made available, but let's not forget the flow of foreigners coming to Singapore. Will Singaporeans themselves lose out in the race?
Why can't we be like some parts of Australia, where they don't offer examinations to students? Isn't this a better way for job applicants to get jobs through what they know and what they can do, and not by their leaving certificates? Wouldn't this give the elderlies opportunities to get jobs as well?
After all, the exams are to be blamed for students committing suicide because of poor results and stress. It's because of exams, thats why students are competing for better results. True, we want Singapore to become a flawless country, with others envying us. But I feel that it's too pressurizing for students, teachers, principals, and even parents.
WE ALL NEED A BREAK.
*This post is to state how I feel. A teacher once said, "Don't blame others for what has happened. Wonder who you should blame? Find the last two letters of blame, and it reads ME. Blame yourself".
But if we continue to blame ourselves for everything, especially the stressful workload from school, the later generations would definitely suffer depression, seriously.
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