People who piss me off ; jerks

I've realized that i've been calling people a "jerk" lately. Well, i have my reasons and you need not ask me why i did so. It's basically because you did something which i felt that was wrong.


Anyway, here's the bad news. I've got kicked out from TAF! Apparently i wasn't heavy enough lah. There goes the opportunity to skip silent reading in the morning. Not forgetting the the enjoyable moments we get to sweat it out. ahaha..

Anyway, i've been a jerk for alot of times. Well, i'm not in the mood to elaborate any further but it's just that i am not in the "mood". i have mood swings sometimes. And when i'm pissed, i can be pretty bitchy and annoying.


Failed both A maths and E maths. Physics teacher threw my paper away, so i have to do a different one. Fucked up huh.


And mr wong said this " i told you to give way alreadyyyyy." Talk to me and I'll imitate him for you. ahaha.

Colin's birthday is coming and he's pretty excited about it. ahahah..
Let's all celebrate people.

I am not proud to be a 3e3 student

I have a bad feeling that i will get kicked out of TAF. I so want to stay in there, but that stupid red t-shirt teacher told me that if i lose more weight, i'd have to join my class back during PE. Pfft.

Reason why i hate my class so much, and don't want to join them back is : My class sucks. Not all of them are jerks, BUT i only can pick out a handful of them who aren't jerks.

I hate it whenever i'm in Chinese class. I just don't fit in. Farna, that's why i wrote "i don't fit in" in my PM. Hahaha.

Anyway, i don't get what the teacher's talking man. And because of that, im always day dreaming.
And when the teacher catches me day dreaming, she starts lecturing me on it. And says that the reason why i don't pass is because i'm not trying hard enough. Like hello? I don't even get what you're trying to say lah. Why can't there only be one laguage?
And all those tests about confuscius makes me even blur about chinese. I mean, who bothers about china's history?

And sitting in a class with jerks isn't really great. Why they're jerks? Because a few of them labelled me as a black girl upon realising that i have a half indian parentage. Just in case you fuckers didnt know, I AM NOT BLACK, IDIOT. I mean, what's wrong in being a few tones darker than you? That doesn't mean i'm black what. Fuckers.

And i hate they way they criticized my shirt design. Saying that it's all ugly, disgusting and all the negative feedbacks you can get. Please lah, at least i was good enough to produce more options for you to choose from. And choosing a jersey is way too common lah. Where's your sense of artistic values? People like you guys just don't appreciate the unique ways and artistic values. Dumb ass. Just because i had a black shirt, doesn't mean that i'm black too. That's fucking hurts as an insult. You guys are like dumb blondes who act all bimbo and bitchy. Ever heard of empty vessels, make the loudest noise? Yes, you guys are empty vessels. Instead of helping out to create, you guys just use your mouth and bitch about everything. Seagulls.


Anyway, i just can't really stand this class. Like i said, not all fo you, but MOST. I know it sounds pretty pathetic. But i don't care. I shall NEVER take part in any activities that shall beefit this class. Let me just be sme kind of laid back kid, who no one shall notice. I AM INVISIBLE. Cheh, like fantastic four's heroine. ahahhah.












I want a big big bear, to add up to my collection of soft toys. ahahaha..

Disappointments

i totally missed out on blogging for this past few days.. Been pretty busy. In case you guys didn't know, I'm VERY KPO. Even when I'm not involved in anything, I'll be, somehow.

Anyway, I AM IN TAF!!! I repeat, I AM IN TAF!!

Pretty great news for me because I've been trying to be in TAF for two years, but failed. So finally I'm in!

But unfortunately, my class lost in the debate yesterday.
And i don't know how the volleyball girls did, in fact, i don't really care.
Speaking of volleyballers, let me explain on why I'm sooo pissed.

Apparently, after getting injured, it seems as though I've totally quit from this team! No one has told me about trainings, the time and even the days when they're playing. Am i not in the team anymore? You guys treat it as though I'm like some kind of an outcast.
Just because I'm injured, it doesn't mean that i would stop TRAINING FOREVER. And even if you've informed me, it'll mostly be on that day itself, what the fuck do you expect me to tell my parents? they're strict people, and should always be informed beforehand, and i respect that.

And stop this racist thing going on here. Even though i understand simple Chinese, it doesn't mean you can communicate in Chinese on and on.. Syakirin doesn't understand and i think she dreads coming to trainings too.

You people only care for yourselves, where did all the "team spirit", "one for all, all for one" attitude? Win or lose, we're still a team. But somehow i don't feel that way.

if you guys are so full of yourselves and think that Chinese speaking people are so much better, than I'll step down. I'm not trying to hate Chinese here, but i feel that everyone should be given a chance. People change,people improve, people learn from their mistakes, but being treated so, how i can feel a belonging?

Oh, this is crap.


Anyways, today was pretty much a fine day. but i think i overdid something today, during recess. Apologies people, apologies.

I never use my head to think before i act. I think it's funny but somehow, i don't really bother about people's feelings. Alot of reflections have been done and i want to apologize and take back my actions from the day i placed burdens onto my parent's / friends/ people around me, shoulder. I mean, i can't stand certain people for just being an ass. Bu somehow, i think I'm an ass too.

People have their own characteristics and sometimes people do not know what they're actually doing, can affect others' alot.
i often tell people that i hate this certain person.. blah blah blah. But what i may not know is that i may be hated too... For being an ass.

So think about it people, stop going around saying you hate this someone, because you never know if you're liked in the first place.

Its was a shocking surprise

Just re-read the previous post and I've realised that i was in a bad mood, offending everyone around me.

Anyway, School today was a total bore.

Made my way to MacDonald's for breakfast with aainaa, syuhada, farhanah and kirin.
Syuhada left first because she wanted to "chope" place in class. Can't blame the kiasu-ism she had(true Singaporean), I'm like that sometimes. But I've never really "Chope" with tissue before.

Anyway, was late for Maths class. We thought we were the latest but we were wrong. Wanteng came, then syafiq(with his "cool" attitude) and lastly ming hong.

Mr Lim didn't seem pissed at first, but by the end of class, he actually raised his voice at us, saying how disappointed he was and how he has lost trust in us. But somehow, i was impressed at how he actually managed to raise his voice at us. Ad he had his shirt TUCKED OUT. So "ah beng" type. Ridiculous.

And after school, we had some debate preparations. I'm starting to hate Eagle ALOT. Sarcastic remarks can really hurt alot. Even if you're in a higher ranking than us, you have no right to malign any of us.

After the debate thingy, aainaa and i went to find farhanah and the rest who were practicing their dance for the competition. There was Lot's of misunderstandings and Farhanah was indeed stressed out.
Well girl, pull through this crap and take steps one at a time.
But anyway, their dance was pretty neat. Good luck for the competition!

Like i said, today is a pretty boring day. Or maybe I'm losing my vibe. I can't blog interestingly anymore. Tsk tsk..

I'll update some other day.

True Friends?

I don't know why, but some how i'm starting to feel guilty for whatever i've done. I've started reflecting on how stupid and immature i was to have the "who cares?" kind of mindset. I feel guilty for even kiling that green spider i saw in class that day. Over-sensitive? I don't think so. Syuhada says that it's like the changing of maturity level. And we're becoming more guilty-conscience.

I've been thinking alot and i sill feel uncomfortable in school, even though i'm secondary three now. Everything was fine last year, but it has changed tremendously this year. Especially Friends.


You see, being an all-rounder is not as easy as i thought it would be. People having their own cliques would just leave you out, or just stare at you for invading thier space. All this wasn't like that last year.

Even jia en has her clique.

And i'm the odd one out. I always thought :what was the point of having a clique when yo can just fit into any group of people? But i was so wrong.

Stupidity made me naive and blind to not see how people don't want you hanging with them, making them "uncool".

And how they rudely interrupt you even though you were talking and had something important to say.

And how they stare at you, making you feel so awkward that you feel like skipping school everyday. It's a relief to me whenever i hear the bell ring, releasing me from the torments of my class, and from school.

I had to spend time in toilets or walking around school aimlessly, hoping that the recess bell woud ring earlier. And how i could walk/run far away from this school. Because what i imagined my worst fear, was about to happen.

My class isn't any better.

Making friends is only when you have sweets with you. Other than that, they simply ignore you.Some times i wonder if they're laughing with me or at me. Because they wy they laugh or give the eye contact really makes it hurtful. It's sarcastic and makes you think twice, judging on what you did, that made them laugh that way.

This is no emo post. I'm over with emo-ing. Things are SO DIFFERENT now.

I was happy once, hoping that everyday it would be like that, but now i've realised that things are not what they are. And that i had been stupid for not realising it soon enough.


I've changed. i don't know for the better or worse. But i like the way i am right now. And i would never change just because you people hate it. I have never really gotten along with people well enough to call them my cliques. I just have friends. But like i said, things do change.

Think i'm exaggerating? Well let me quote an example:

Once i was in a cast. And the school was fucked up to even ask me to try to walk up to the fourth floor, where my class was. Obvioulsy, i couldn't mae it. and they sarcasticly told me that i was affecting 80 people. My class was moved down to the first floor, but the clerks were still pissed off at me for causing "so much trouble".

when i entered class, i was somehow touched to see them welcoming me back, claping and cheering. But my happiness was soon dashed off by a spear when i realised that not even one of them took my books down for me. I was so angry that i wanted to scream my head off. How could you possibly think that i could simply walk up to the fourth floor and happily take my books down!?!

I told some of the guys of for not even taking my books for that day. It was okay, if they even took A BOOK. But to my disappointment, there was no book under my desk. And everyone just acted dumb, thinking that they didn't know that no one took my books for me.

And using my book is fine, but having my book confiscated is WRONG! For now, i can't get back that book, because the teacher wants to "investigate".

I am pissed off at the fact that people call me a friend but only care for their own butts. What's the point of making friends when all you care is yourselves?

And you guys want to say that our class is united? I think not.



I can't be bothered to take part in any class activity. This is not being selfish. this is where i state my point that i hate this class, this school and would never compliment about ANYTHING.

For those who are pissed off at the fact that i have written horrible things about your beloved school/class, I DONT CARE! You may love it, but different people have theor views and obviously, mine is a negative one. Bobahs.

Holidays and KFC

This is a repeat of a post that was earlier created but somehow vanished. This post is re-written and holds no grudges against neither KFC nor the people mentioned below.


My blog is so dead, there's no tag and i don't think anyone's reading. So I’m probably typing and reading my own journal just to satisfy myself. Ahahaha..

And thanks to Dee, i have officially gone wild. Just love seeing her laugh ALOUD and thus, making all of us embarrassed. Well, who can blame a girl who has a funky and unforgettable demeanor? She reads Captain underpants. Ahahahaha..


Anyway, it's the holidays now and I’m busy with work. Who am i kidding? i am sucked deep into a dimension where there's only drawn things moving about; cartoons lah.

Lately, I’ve been catching up on cartoons like Sponge bob Sqaurepants, The avatar: The last Air Bender, The Simpsons, X men , X men evolution, Dora the Explorer, hi5, Baby Looney tunes and finally , Barney and Friends!


Speaking of television, have you guys seen the latest KFC television advertisement?
After watching it several times, i felt embarrassed for having this advertisement shown in television, all around SINGAPORE.

Case 1: Finger licking good Malay Family.

When i first saw this advertisement, i found it ingenious of KFC to get a Malay family (based on the halal facts). And the family consisted of a dad, a mom and a kid. This shows that people of all ages agree that KFC is finger licking good and enjoy eating at the fast food restaurant.

But then i realized that instead of proving that it's finger licking good, the family actually sucked their fingers. I mean they actually popped their fingers into their mouth, and slowly pulled it out.

Being a greater fan of KFC than to MacDonald's, I somehow felt utterly, disgusted. I mean, wouldn't you feel disgusted upon seeing some people suck their fingers in order to prove that it's delicious?

And i was disappointed in how the family "cheered" about enjoying KFC. If that was a way to draw customers, i believe that they would rather go else where. It was disbelieving.

I can't help but to laugh at the dad who actually got "slapped" by his son! I mean the kid was so excited, with his hands widely stretched, jumping up and down, that he didn't realize that his hand was too close to his dad's face.

Two words: Utter humiliation.


Case 2: The rap by the guy and the girl; couple.

When i first saw this advertisement, i couldn't help feeling that "it would turn bad". The couple looked as though they had guns held at neck point and were forced to dance/rap for KFC. Their so called "rap" about the yummy burgers is disappointing. The guy started off earlier than the girl, both ending at different timings. And their tones were monotonous. I mean couldn't you guys TRY to put some FUNK into it? And the way you guys danced were as though you guys were walking on thin glass, afraid that it'll break.


How can Singaporeans be proud of advertisements like these? If people from other countries were to view our advertisements, they would be mocking at us.

Everything in Singapore should be up to standard, or better yet, better than anyone had expected. Nothing should be done simply. We should prove to other countries that they had under-estimated us. Even though we're a small country, we can do Wonders. People should never look down on us, but to look up to us in amazement.

Singapore should improve and grow with the population. we should try new things, without forgetting the old ones too. We should improvise from there. Breaking the rules in a big no no in Singapore. But we should at least bend the rules and be more flexible in order to be up to standard in competence with the other countries.

the Government should hire more Graffiti artist/freestylers/rappers into the industry to promote things that youth nowadays love doing. Instead of having Graffiti illegally sprayed on drains or walls, Grafitti artist should be allowed to draw let's say Lee Kuan Yew in graffiti style. This could be a portrait in the Art museums.

Why disapproves what youths do? Why not encourage them to do it in a right way?


Damn I sound like a lawyer. I can be the next Prime Minister.

Blahs

I was supposed to go to school today, but Monday blues just took me in to never land.

Anyway, apologies to syuhada(i still owe you some bashes, girly type) for not returning her physics book on time. hahha.

anyway, after reading the previous post, i felt that it was some sort of a great step in life while revealing so many stupid suff about oneself. Okay, who am i kidding?

Just got a call from Mr wong and he says that some teachers have already given out the test paper and that i may have to sit for another test. Fuck. And i only studied the topics that the rest took. Pfft.

oh well, I'm deciding to change my URL because i feel that it's sounding abit to twitty. Okay, alot. But i haven't thought of a new one to replace it. Help?

And I'm also deciding whether to waste my time and dry my brains cells to think of a so-called essay to write here, and link it to youth.sg.
There's fabulous prizes okay.


okay, i think I'm going to end here. i still have to study for the tests lah. Might as well ask me to wash the toilets. Studying + Me = Lot's of doodles and no info gets into my head.