Interviews

Interviews are my worst nightmare (other than having the lady from Ring crawl out of my TV, Chuckie to be under my bed, Freddy Krueger to live in my dreams, and Bloody Mary to live in my mirror and scary midget demonic clowns hopping /running around with minituare daggers all happening at the same time. Right Syuh?).





And I dread interviews so much. Why? It is actually not the fear of being rejected during the interview, but rather, not being prepared to give a speech about myself. I am fine with the fact that they ask questions that require me to state my point of view.

However, the killer question during the interview would have to be "Tell me about yourself". Trust me, if you were my interviewer, you'd pretty much want to smack me on the head. Because I always emphasize on the 'wrong' things.

Like in a recent interview that I went to, I was asked to tell them more about myself. And as always, I startd off with my interest. Soon enough, I landed myself in the "I appreciate Arts, but it wouldn't seem like the 'usual' Arts to some, because I enjoy tattoos and body piercings". And then, totally in my own zone, I'll relate incidents (sometimes even chuckling to myself) or events where I got to see beautiful art pieces (the tattoos and body piercings) up close and personal. And I even talked about wanting to head to Thailand to check out the Vegetarian festival because of the body piercings they do there.

The awkwardness would only come when I look up at them, to only see a horrified/bewildered face staring back at me.



And if that isn't bad enough, I have the habit of saying "Errhhh...", "Urm...." and even "And so on", so much that even I find it irritating.

Interviewer: So tell me something about yourself.

Me:I enjoy sports because I think that it is one of the few ways to unleash my potential without having to be judged based on my looks and speech. It also takes my mind of off things and so on.

If I were the interviewer, i'd simply shoot back with a "What the heck is so on?".

Thankfully, all the interviews that I have been to, have nice interviewers.
Why oh why must they have interviews for so many events? It's not as if we're attending some beauty pageant or anything like that. True, we'll be asked questions that require to be answered on the spot, but never something that suggests telling them more about myself.


But then again, it's funny as I relate the entire scenario back at home. I guess I'm so used to the fact that my family accepts Art and are really open-minded, that I relate my opinions just like how I do it at home. And it beats giving beauty pageant answers.





I think most of my classmates know about that part already, if they've been reading my answers on the various articles posted on MEL. And of course, my friends who may know too much about me and my point of view. Hahah!

And other than finding difficulty in giving almost perfect answers to the random questions, I still have no idea why people find it hard to accept those with piercings/tattoos/weird sense of dressing (Weird/unique, you decide).

No matter how much we try to not judge a book by its cover, we always end up doing it.

And sometimes, I hate myself for doing so because when placing myself in that person's shoes, I'd never want anyone to judge me/think of me/ treat me like how I do to some.

Ridiculous.

And now you know, as to why I hate going to interviews. And it's because of interviews that always make me miss fruitful experiences and adventures.

I do hope that I can conquer this fear, or at least find a better answer to the questions soon. Or else, I'm screwed for future careers.


Till then.



Loves.

Quiz!

Found this off of YiLing's blog. I was curious enough to do it, and my results were pretty... true. I fear disappointment.



I think you guys should try it too, and see if it really tells of what you are indeed afraid of.


Here's mine.

What is your True Fear? Your Result: Disappointment You are a fun-loving, energetic, and cheerful person. You love adrenaline rushes, and going out at night. You constantly have to be having a great time to feel completely happy. Your biggest fear is not having anything to do, or having a huge disappointment/let down in your life. You hate being sad, and if something in your life suddenly went wrong it would be extremely hard for you to deal with. Just remember that everyone has to deal with hard times. Stay strong, and pretty soon your fun, party life will get right back the way it used to be.
Being Alone
Commitment
Looked down on
Where Your life is Going
Losing Someone
Death
What is your True Fear? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

Bite Me

After reading today's New Paper, I'm a tad bit nervous to start work at the zoo. I found out that today's news was not only published in Singapore, but also other parts of the world like India and the USA.

If you have no idea what I'm talking about, go grab the New Paper or Click Here, Here and Here.

The New Paper also revealed other incidents that happened in the zoo, involving Ah Meng our famous orang utan, hippos, elephants and chimps.

My mum's worried, and she's asking me to reconsider my job, for fear of something bad might happen to me.



But all the more, I'm even more excited to be up front, face-to-face with theses dangerous, it gives me a sort of adrenaline rush.

Ghost Festival

At the stroke of Midnight, everything will be different.

Everyone would be seen rushing home before night comes knocking on their doors.

The night sky seems darker as the only thing that lights up your pathway would be the glowing flame of the lighted candles that accompany the offerings.

Every corner you turn, you'll face bins that roar and cackle as people throw the "paper dolls, shirts and money" into the rising flame.

You see tents in the middle of the field, you squint to have a better view of what it is all about. It's a Chinese opera performance for the "visitors".

You try to erase the scary faces of the opera singers, but before you know it, two ghoulish eyes stare at you, ready to eat you alive.

You try to run, but tripped. A nightmarish laughter haunts you as you try to erase the eerie glare that you got earlier.

You try to avoid the ashes on the drains that are enveloped by a white circle, but as hard as you try, the mistral gently blows the ashes forming a tornado, after you.

You quicken your pace, but soon hears a familiar voice calling your name.

Should you turn around to see who it is?

Millions of thoughts races through your head as you mentally weigh between turning to look or not.

It's 1am, and you turned. And you saw...









True enough, midnight would mark the start of the Hungry Ghost festival. If you have no idea what that is, fear not, I've check wikipedia.org!

The Ghost Festival (simplified Chinese: 中元节; traditional Chinese: 中元節; pinyin: zhōngyuánjié) is a traditional Chinese festival and holiday, which is celebrated by Chinese in many countries. In the Chinese calendar (a lunisolar calendar), the Ghost Festival is on the 15th night of the seventh lunar month.

In Chinese tradition, the thirteenth day of the seventh month in the lunar calendar is called Ghost Day and the seventh month in general is regarded as the Ghost Month (鬼月), in which ghosts and spirits, including those of the deceased ancestors, come out from the lower realm. During the Qingming Festival the living descendants pay homage to their ancestors and on Ghost Day, the deceased visit the living.

On the thirteenth day the three realms of Heaven, Hell and the realm of the living are open and both Taoists and Buddhists would perform rituals to transmute and absolve the sufferings of the deceased. Intrinsic to the Ghost Month is ancestor worship, where traditionally the filial piety of descendants extends to their ancestors even after their deaths. Activities during the month would include preparing ritualistic food offerings, burning incense, and burning joss paper, a papier-mache form of material items such as clothes, gold and other fine goods for the visiting spirits of the ancestors. Elaborate meals would be served with empty seats for each of the deceased in the family treating the deceased as if they are still living. Ancestor worship is what distinguishes Qingming Festival from Ghost Festival because the former includes paying respects to all deceased, including the same and younger generations, while the latter only includes older generations. Other festivities may include, burying and releasing miniature paper boats and lanterns on water, which signifies giving directions to the lost ghosts and spirits of the ancestors and other deities.

When I was younger, I was very afraid whenever the Hungry Ghost Festival were around. Because I always had a tendency to picture the "visitors" as scary ghosts who looked something like this:



















I was very naive and a coward, so I believed the folk tales of not going for a swim during the Ghost Month, not turning around when I heard someone calling my name, not stepping on any burnings, and apologize if I did, and to never stand near the offerings, or even ask/say anything about the offerings.

My mum used to tell me that kids have the ability to look at the "supernatural" and I for one, have experienced it.

I remember one time when I was really young (and stupid). I asked my mum why there were so many ravenous people fighting for the offerings. It was only a few years later, that I realized that the ravenous people were the homeless souls who depended on people's offerings to survive.

I've lost the magic touch to see the "supernatural" but I would love to go on expeditions to try to "regain" the touch back. Besides, who wouldn't love the explore more of the Lingo world?

I know exploring and entering their "territory" could be a grave danger, literally, as we may offend them without knowing it at all. But still, I would love to be part of SPI.


Any SPI people want to take me in?