Friendships

Friendships. 

I don't know whether it is a form of punishment (maybe I was Cruella De Vil in my previous life) but I always seem to be landing on the wrong spot when it comes to friendship.

Not too long ago, I met up with one of my good friends and while we were sharing with each other about all the nasty experiences we had,with some people, something struck us.

It suddenly dawned upon us that all the people that we were comfortable with, and were trying to avoid, had characteristics that were so similar to each other, that we were almost sure they were clones.

So why do I keep finding these clones even though I already know of their characteristics? It's like finding the needle in the haystack over and over again, even though I do not want to find it. Apart from these clones however, there are still loads more friendship issues that I am facing and to be honest, I just want everything to stop.

I used to be, and am still envious of all the people around me who can simply enjoy a good meal with their friends. I on the other hand, seem to always have complicated situations with people. One such friendship has turned so bad, that we're not even talking to each other. But the problem is that there wasn't any fault or issue to begin with. How complicated can friendships be? And it always has to end in such an awkward manner where I am at fault, being I am mean, scary, and manly.

I wish I had a twin whom I could confide to.