There is no escape. You can't be a vagabond and an artist and still be a solid citizen, a wholesome, upstanding man. You want to get drunk, so you have to accept the hangover. You say yes to the sunlight and pure fantasies, so you have to say yes to the filth and the nausea. Everything is within you, gold and mud, happiness and pain, the laughter of childhood and the apprehension of death. Say yes to everything, shirk nothing. Don't try to lie to yourself. You are not a solid citizen. You are not a Greek. You are not harmonious, or the master of yourself. You are a bird in the storm. Let it storm! Let it drive you!

who were your good / bestfriends in pri and sec school?

I love questions like this because it allows me to reminisce about the past that was shared with fabulous people.

This is going to be a long reply,but if you're really curious about my answer, then bear with me yeah?

Anyways, for lower primary, my best friend had to be Sharifah Nabilah. She was one of the coolest chicks, and we lived in the same block, and since I was always skipping school, she would help me collect my work (kinda' sounds like I made use of her huh?). But she is a intelligent and unique character who has a passion for designing clothes.

Other than her, I spent most of my time in the staff room with Ms Faith Sim who was not only a teacher, but a friend, counsellor and someone whom I looked up to. Most of my primary school teachers were like my friend, especially Ms Sim, Mrs Law, and Ms Ishatika (I think.

Then came the time where all of us had to move up to senior role and I kinda' lost contact with them. However, the new bunch of friends that I made were just as awesome. My senior class for example, with Farrah, kirin, Fadaria and Haiza, and the guys like Douglas and Leonard were cool kids. Then there was Elaine who always helped me out in Chinese Class. And then there were the after-school kids like Julia and Diana(who were always there when I needed people to confide in), Lixin, Cheryl, Xue Ping, Twins, Wen ya, Yiling, Jia Xin, and Weiting. And how could I forget the guys like Nicholas and Dion Choo (sadly, I lost contact with them after they left school), Jonathan, Jun Guo, Hafiz.. The list can go on and on...

As for sec school, nothing beats the people that were with me through thick and thin when I was a mess in lower sec. People like Syuh, Raudah, Malek, Liyana, Colin, Alex. And how could I forget the people I met in upper sec, my dear NE leaders, Ms Lim Hui Qi, Alkaff, Aainaa, Shera, jeanice, and the volleyballers.

As you can see, I don't really have a best friend. Every person is significant to me and I know that I have missed out so many more names, but I do love them just the same.

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Happy Birthday! What are your birthday wishes?

Thank you so much! Well, I actually don't have birthday wishes but I guess it wouldn't hurt to make some up as I type this.

1. Find a way to stop making people think that I'm scary (dead serious on this).

2. Have more confidence in how I look?

3. Be able to turn my words into action

4. Figure out my career path by this year.

5. For mum and brothers to be able live life comfortably.

6. Get a new haircut

7. Hang out more often with people that I care about

8. Be able to find something that I am good at.

9. Learn something cool/unique

10. Make my family proud, so that they can stop worrying about me.

I guess that's about it for now...

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We need more people like him in this Earth

Obsession

Never once did I ever think that I would fall head over heels for you. I never really opened my heart to anyone because I was afraid. Afraid of so many things so much that I had to hide my feelings deep within me. But when I'm with you, things are different. I never expected anyone to be able to bring down the walls that were safely guarding my fragile heart, but you were able to. Your warmth, your comfort and just the presence itself makes you seem like a guardian angel because I feel safe and comfortable whenever I am with you. You make me feel secure because I know that I am no longer alone, and that you would always me there with me. It's me and you against the world. But that is not the only thing that I like about you. The best part of this whole thing is of how there is a tingling sensation whenever you are in my arms. I'm addicted to you. I need you. I love you.

Most of you would probably be gagging at the mushy stuff that I wrote above. However it is true, I am in love, but with who you say? Who could possibly be so blind or at the very least brave enough to steal my heart? Well, it is not a HIM, nor is it a HER.

So what then? Just scroll down then...

WARNING.

May cause severe drooling and hyperventilation

If you have been following me on Twitter or Tumblr, you would have read about my obsession, so you would have guessed 'who' I was talking about earlier. However, if you have been missing out on my updates, then just Click Here to find out 'who' I was talking about.

No I was kidding. I was actually talking about candy. Yes, candy will show you the way to my heart. Being able to taste the sweet savoury candy that slowly melts in one's mouth gives me the thrills. I'm obsessed with it and I enjoy getting sugar rush every once in awhile because of it.

As you can see, I like to stock up on candy every once and awhile (This is my workstation at home by the way). As you can see, I've got the Crisp Dinosaur (HAHAHA) and loaded him with a couple of crisps and choco. Then there is the container of Easter Eggs and Gummies. I'm still trying to find time to get some sour gummies, chocolate sunflower seeds and M&Ms (or as how my mum puts it, MMMs).



However, I don't think I need to get them anytime soon, and it's all thanks to Rafidah, Rachael and Hamidah. Because look what they gave me!

Okay, so you can't really see what that is... but it is actually a bag of heavenly goodness. Food Porn I tell you! Just keep scrolling down to see why...

Look at what greeted me when I opened the gift. MALTESEERS!!

All of the candy that was in the gift. Three types of Sour Powder,(love this sort of candy when I was a kid) Sour Gecko gummy (MMMMM...), Cadbury Freddo Chocolate (used to have a stash of them too, the white chocolate one was 'cut-leg awesome), Milky way (Man it's been so long since I ate this. One of the best chocolates ever), Jelly beans (reminds me of the Harry Potter ones that Syuh used to have!), Gummy Eyeball (this is the sickest one of all. I LIKE!) and finally, that bag of MALTESEERS!!!! How can anyone not go crazy over candy? Mmm...


And if that is not enough, then check this one out...


The craziest chocolate combo that I tried at the Ice Cream Buffet. The ice cream flavours were: Mudpie, sticky chewy, rocky road, coffee and butterscotch. And the toppings were: milo balls, malteseers, chocolate fudge, wafer, chocolate sprinkles and coco pops.


I don't know about you but I sure am drooling. Shall go get myself some Nutella toast now.


Till then.

Someone once asked me how I lived my life and my answer would always be "Eat and drink, for tomorrow we die", a simplified version of an Egyptian phrase that I got online. To me, it kind of meant that I wanted to live life to the fullest, not regretting a single bit if I ever had to leave this Earth unannounced.


However, the past few days got me thinking a little bit, and I realized that I was not actually living my life to the fullest. In fact, I was living in denial all this while.


Not to long ago, I stumbled upon a phrase from the movie 'Bucket List'. The phrase was actually an Egyptian belief, that when one kicked the bucket, one had to answer two questions before one was allowed to enter heaven. The two questions were "Have you found joy in your life" and "Have your life brought joy to others?". I remembered that I vowed to follow these questions as I progressed further into my life, however time, oblivion and ignorance got the better of me and to tell you the truth, I am disgusted at where I am right now.


Maybe that is the very same reason why I hate on the world so much for hating me huh.




Maybe the reason why things are how they are is it's all because of......











ME.

Keth, i want a wand. then i can secretly cast spells in my room. Do you want a wand as bad as i do? HAHHAHA. Oh and i ate mint gummy bears the other day. MHMMMMM.

I NEED A WAND. I've already prepared a list of spells that I wanna cast. Oh you know the cake that I showed you? I showed it to my mum and begged her to get it for me, and she said I should've shown her earlier if I wanted it for my 18th. But she says she'll try to find comeone who can make the cake.

*Throws easter eggs at you*. MINT GUMMI BEARS ARE MINE!!!

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I think you're fat

I never said I wasn't. But I can't help it if my boobs are the size of the equator, and that I enjoy jumping down steps because of how the layers of blubber around me jiggles.

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5 mean things you've done?

In home or in school?

Well, I've never done anything mean at home. I love them too much to hurt them. But I do pull pranks of them. The meanest one would be to make my brother play the maze game with the volume full blast.

On the other hand, I've got way too much history for the things I've done in school (pri and sec), some of my friends should know about it. Anyways, the 5 meanest things would be:

1. Put glitter on the projector (tagged team work with someone(: Hahah).
2. Pour glue on the teacher's table (the teacher actually thought it was drool!).
3. Put double sided tape on the teacher's chair (again, tagged team work (: Heh)
4. Vandalize an entire toilet about someone (again tagged team)
5. I can't decide between spamming someone and then pretend I'm not that person, throwing a sweet at someone's face and bursting out in laughter (though it was unintentional), and tripping my teacher by tying my classmate's table and mine with correction tape (tagged team again!).

I'm actually a very nice person you know.

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People who follow you on your tumblr and blog would know that you like the Kaulitz brothers and Johnny Depp. But who's your real life crush?

Woah, I didn't know my posts about them were that obvious, since not many of my friends know about it. And my real life crush? No one actually, unless you consider Gambit and Wolverine as real.

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