Goals and Priorities

Whenever I needed time to reflect or come up with ideas, I would take a long, hot bath. It was my "thinking hat" where I gather the day's events and think through what I did, and could have done to make things better. Or simply to think of what I'm going to do next.


Today's bath made me think through about my goals and priorities in Life.

Since young, my plan was to be in the Education System. I wanted to be the unique one, teaching the kids things that textbooks don't teach, things that you learn in Life. And year after year, I grew more into that ambition, mainly thanks to my mum, whom I help whenever she teaches the kids at work. And through her, I got to see how teachers ( her colleagues and herself) use different methods to teach the kids.

One teacher uses a lot of paper. Everything was learned through paper. It was interesting but kids, with short attention spans, always disliked her class.

Then there was another teacher. She used songs and stories to teach the kids. It was really interesting, but the kids, some of them, had no idea what the teacher was talking about, and so , I guess they tuned out.


Then there was my mum. What I liked about her class, whenever I had the chance to sit in, was that every lesson, she would definitely involve the kids.

One of the memorable lessons was about sea creatures. She made turtle shells from cardboard, fish scales from the perforator and claws from papier-mâché for the kids. She and the kids then wore them and together they swam like a fish, walked like a crab and glided like a sea turtle, on the floor. This was of course accompanied by a made-up story that she created as they played along.

This inspired me as I noticed how much the kids were enjoying themselves. I wanted to be just like her.


And over the years, I grew more and more in love with the passion to teach. And this inspiration pushed me further into wanting to teach the special needys.


I wanted to follow that dream, but as I grew older, one of the greatest sin of all, Sloth took a liking to me. It was only attracted to me whenever I was studying, but left me alone when I was in sports or other things that I liked. Thus, my studies were affected. This phase of Life, was the one I hated the most, because my cousins from my dad's side were always comparing their results with me. It was agonizing, and I hated their visits.

I was spurred to prove that I was intelligent and I could score good grades. I forced myself to study day in and day out, till one day, I could'nt take it anymore. I stared blankly and I questioned myself, which was more important, proving them wrong and stressing myself out, or simply be who I wanted to be. And I chose the latter.

Some of you may think that it's stupid and stuff to choose to "slack" more than study, but I guess I just can't force myself hard enough to study. As most of my friends say it, I have a very much "bo-chap" attitude. It may be bad for some things, and good for others. But this is one choice I will never regret.

My mum sometimes blames herself for being the one who did not push me and my brothers hard enough in our studies. That was why my dad disappointed in us, who always lost academically to my cousins.

But my brothers and I always thanked her for not pushing us, as this bonded us closer than any other families I know. Besides, what's the point of having good education, when you have sucky attitude and no respect for others?

Well, I still do push myself for the things I want, but if I can't get, I wouldn't be devastated. Because, maybe it's just not meant for me.

But nevertheless, I'll still work towards my dream, and that is to be an Educator.


I then shifted to the priorities in my Life; Family, Education, Career, Friendship and Love.

It's funny how some teens till now, have this ridiculous mindset of "I'll love him/her forever and ever. I'll die because I can't live without him/her. My life's worthless without him/her".

It always cracked me up because these were mere words that you say in attempt for the other party to feel touched. Come on, can't live without that person? Then how did you live your life before you knew that person?

And Life being worthless without that person? Well, pity your mum who had to go through 9 months of labour to bear you. I mean you wouldn't want her efforts of bringing you up, go to waste isn't it? If you disagree, then you're an ass.

I am someone who believes in Love. But I think at my age, it seems more like puppy love than true love. I don't think I would have the time, effort and willingness to bother, to be in a relationship. Unless someone can change my mind, Love's going to be the last.


Family is definitely the first. Who would swop anything or your own flesh and blood?

Friends come next. I know some might think that Education is more important. But to me, friends, especially family friends who go through with me as much as my own family does, mean the most to me.

I know some friendships do not last as long as a couple of years, but I'd like to live it as that, because you never know who might need your help or vice versa.


I just do hope most of my friends become family friends too, so we're inseparable.


The other two are more of an in-between. Have not thought hard enough to find a placing for them.








I'll end this post with something that happened to me a few days back.


M = Me, G = Guy who was distributing something.


Here goes.


A couple of days ago, I was walking around town, apparently meeting someone, and out of the blue, G, popped infront of me. He was held out something to me. I wasn't looking at it, instead I was looking at him, because he looked handsome for a Chinese Guy.

M: Hi, what's this? * Still looking at him*

G: You want cow poon?

M: Huh?

G: You want cow poon?

M: Urh.... * For that moment, I swear it was really awkward*

I then made an attempt to look at what he was holding.

M: Oh! Coupons! Yes, thanks. *Quickly walks away before embarrassing both of us*


This tragedy was the same as the moment I laid eyes on eye candy : Tom Kaulitz from Tokio Hotel. He's hot, but once he starts speaking. Haiyoh, spoils everything. Hahaha.


Bye, and all the best to the 'O' level graduates, tomorrow's the last of the Major papers!



And Happy Anniversary Mum and Dad!

Let's Rewind, and take a step at a time

It's been almost a week since I've updated.

Well, this week has been an eventful week, from the makings of the class photo album of the past and the present, to the connect Singapore event, to the Beijing Olympics, and finally, to our very own Nation's Birthday.

I'll update on the above events once I've gotten all the photos from Aainaa, plus the NDP and Olympic photos.

Anyway, skipping to yesterday, I managed to catch "Camp Rock" online and I fell in love with one of the songs, titled "This is me".


Demi Lovato- This Is Me ( Acoustic Piano Version)

Lyrics:

I've always been the kind of girl
That hid my face
So afraid to tell the world
What I've got to say
But I have this dream
Right inside of me
I'm gonna let it show, it's time
To let you know
To let you know

This is real, this is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be, now
Gonna let the light, shine on me
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me

Do you know what it's like
To feel so in the dark
To dream about a life
Where you're the shining star
Even though it seems
Like it's too far away
I have to believe in myself
It's the only way

This is real, This is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be, now
Gonna let the light, shine on me
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me

You're the voice I hear inside my head
The reason that I'm singing
I need to find you, I gotta find you
You're the missing piece I need
The song inside of me
I need to find you, I gotta find you

This is real, this is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be, now
Gonna let the light, shine on me
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me
You're the missing piece I need
The song inside of me (this is me)
You're the voice I hear inside my head
The reason that I'm singing
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me

I like the Acoustic(Piano) version more, but I still like Joe Jonas' Duet.

Duet


Acoustic


I like this girl's voice alot!




I guess the song speaks for most of us.

Sometimes, we so desperate to be accepted by others, that we lie our way through, to "be someone". But as time passes, the lies that we built slowly come crashing down on us, revealing who we are supposed to be.


The greatest gift is your Life, and the greatest lie, is to lie about yourself. Being successful does not mean you have to be rich and famous. Being successful means you're respected because you not only believe in yourself, but you believe in others. Fear and Respect are two different worlds.
So don't ever confuse the two.

Everyone has success written in their goals.

Take a step at a time to reach your goals.

One of my new favorites.